I stopped at day care to see Punkie today. I had a small chunk of time at lunchtime to spare and I thought, hey, I’d really like to see the little guy. That toothless grin can really brighten my day.
I walked into day care and he was playing with a toy and staring at another baby with his back to the door. I talked to him and he didn’t turn around. I put my hand on his shoulder and said hey, Punkie, mommy’s here! And he didn’t turn around. I picked up an enticing looking toy and shook it at him and touched his head and said, hi Punkie – how are you? He didn’t turn around.
It wasn’t until I picked him up that he acknowledged that I was there and the smile was kind of lukewarm, if I’m being honest.
I guess he doesn’t miss me during the day. I can take that guilt off my plate.
We played for a while – he was in a good mood. He wanted to see everything and do everything and shake every rattle in the room. He wanted to pull the sock off another baby’s foot, and he wanted to grab my glasses and pull my hair.
The ladies at day care call him Busy Bee – he has what the sorority pledges in college used to call “swivel head.” He’s constantly aware of who is around him and what’s happening, with his head going back and forth all day. I assume it’s for a different reason than the sorority pledges (they were required to greet all the sisters with some kind of greeting or face a dire consequence). That is, except when mommy is there talking to him – then his head doesn’t swivel.
When I left, he played it cool – he just swiveled the other way without a concern.
I wish he was happier to see me. Maybe it’s my ego (that sad, anemic ego of mine) that wants him to pine for me during the day. Although, I am actually very glad that he’s content at day care. It wasn’t long ago that I was feeling crushed under a tower of guilt for leaving him at day care all day.